christmas weekend

another 5 days we will leave 2009 and embrace the year 2010. time really does fly super fast. well, am looking forward towards the new year. new plans, new hopes and new resolutions. haha

on Christmas eve, me and my little brother decided to do something fun. haha. well, bahau just opened this small cinema here. it has 5 screens. and the movies list are updated same par with those mega cinemas. that the good part. haha.

so me and he decided to watch the movie 'vettaikaran' starring my favourite actor, Vijay. the movies was around 2 and half hours plus. our movie was at 11.45pm. it ran for around 2 and the half hours plus. great songs and great storyline. plan to watch second time. haha.

come home around 3am. then can't tidur. brain still ringing with the movie soundtracks i think. haha. then i decided to do some self reflection on what i have done in the year 2009. some things were good and some were bad. haha. some left me with sweet memories and not lupa also the bitter memories which i hope to erase when i embrace the year 2010.

this so called self reflection ran until 4.30am i think. last time i checked my watch. haha. then i dozed off, nasib baik iu put alarm to wake up at 9am. church Christmas service was at 10am. mom asked us all to siap-siap by 9.30am.

Christmas service was nice and we had some light makan-makan after service. the caterer's food was boleh dikatakan sedap la. haha. after that, went over to dad's friend photo studio to snap a family portrait together. the last time my family did one family portrait was when i was three years old. thats 19 years old. haha.

spend Christmas day at home and didnt go jalan-jalan anywhere. but today, plan to lepak with my kampung friends and catch jay chow's new movie in cinema. haha.



p/s: santa claus didnt give me my IPHONE as a christmas gift. damn you santa. :-)

holidays mood

been in kampung for around two weeks already. did so many nice things. among it, help dad and mom do some household chores. yes, Sylvester doing work. haha. dad needed some work, i helped a little in. then he started to give me day to day task to do. bully me nampak. haha. love you dad.

besides that, tuition work also started. preparing good and quality worksheets for my beloved little students. am waiting for beloved boss to give me more form 3, 4 and 5 classes. i need the experience. haha.

bahau is indeed a very beautiful place. and also beautiful friends. met up with some high school friends. some are working and some still studying. one is even doing his Masters. damn. i'm still doing my degree. haha. meeting up with old friends brings back old high school memories. the dumb stuff we did, the 'crimes' we committed, the rotan lashes we got. haha. it's nice exchanging old stories and planning for our future life direction.

being the only son at home at present, my little brother is away at college sitting for his finals, means i am the only one you can 'abuse' my dad's car. haha. oil is free, that's nice. :-) hope you are not reading this dad and little brother. but looking forward for his return home this week. so dad, mom, me and little brother can have a mini holiday together. and dad also reminded us that we haven't snapped a family portrait together. looking back, can't remember when was the last time we did so. haha



p/s: hope Malaysia football team can beat Laos today and win gold at Sea Games 2009 :-)

never gonna be alone

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day


nickelback-never gonna be alone


p/s: i'm home alone with beloved dad. :-)

back home

semester break has just begin starting from 20 November onwards. but i had to stay back at kl to take care of my beloved grandfather who just had a hip operation. was there for two weeks.

just reached home yesterday. i haven't been home in a damn long time. haha. actually was busy with finals and work related stuff at cheras. so could not come as as frequent as before.

so many changes happened in my beloved home. dad fixed a aircond at my room. i don't know why he did that actually. hehe. plus he tahu that i tidak boleh sleep with aircond on. he say he wanted to just fixed it. haha . nice alasan dad. my house grill was also changed. it was time because the old grill was over 10 years old.

today i woke up then sedar my mom had to rush over to kl back. my grandfather suffered some health complications. so left me and dad here. little brother is over at his study place getting himself geared up for exams.

so i can spend more time bonding with dad. haha. i can also help in his business running. but remember to tip me well dad. if you are reading this. hehe.

i just love the feeling of being at home. no stress at all. besides that i get to 'abuse' my dad's car. haha. minyak is free, dad pays for it. haha. electricity bill also is free. haha. so bad son you have dad. :-)

i will be here for the whole month of December before my new semester begins. hope to spend quality time with my folks and little brother.



p/s: dad seems to like his LCD samsung television screen very much. :-)

derita merindu

Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan
Kau yang tak percaya? bagaimana nak bahagia


Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa


Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..


Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada, ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula


Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan?
Aku masih terkilan


Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa


Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu


Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa


p/s: i think i start to miss someone :-)

4.00am ( 17.11.2009)

aku tidak menyedari the clock time when i wrote this. sebab was stuck in reading notes for my exam paper today. the paper is MTE3112, Assessment Practices In Mathematics. banyak juga facts yang kena hafal.

just decided to scribble something before i go off to bed. need to wake up by 9am, to do some last and light reading of the exam notes and most penting, tips. haha. so much depend on tips. :-) well, that is a maktab life student experiences.

in three months from now, i will turn 23. huhu. become older. and hopefully wiser. haha. next year will be my final year at maktab. plus i hope to capai all my hasrat hati for the new year. as they say, age is just a number. most penting, the heart never grows old. if you are reading this mom and dad, please get me my special gift for my birthday. nanti i will tell both of you ya what i want as a birthday gift. :-)

sometimes in life, we don't get what we want. no matter how hard we try. all that is left is kepenatan and bitterness and tears towards our own self. i have learnt that in life, no matter how much money one can have, they can't buy happiness. sometimes, the best things in life are free. haha :-)

you can't force someone to like you. it is a feeling that develops mengikut waktu. but if you like someone, can you stop to like the person once the the person doesn't like you back.? haha. that is a damn tricky question my close girlfriend once asked me. thinking back, maybe yes, maybe no.

but sometimes, moving on is the hardest part. tears in the heart can never been seen unlike tears in the eyes. every night the heart pours out tears that can fill a sea. why does this happen.? why does things happen that way that causes it.? could another remedy besides crying be the solution.?


p/s: a wound in the body is faster to heal then a wound in the heart.

friday the 13th ( 13.11.2009)

actually i didn't' ever sedar the date for today. then one of my friend started getting nuts i think and talk about the history related to the Friday the 1th. haha. to me its just karut and no related to reality at all. total bollocks in my opinion.

i woke up and my beloved houseamte 'da bao' one packet of my favourite nasi lemak. how nice to wake up everyday like this. hehe :-) after makan it, then i terus back to tidur. even though i have two more papers for exam next week, i malas nak study at all. help me. :-)

yesterday, was the first time i went to LCCT at sepang there. haha. was to go and pick up one of my beloved housemates elder brother. he has a convocation here at PWTC. was a fun journey to there while sembang-sembang with friends in the car.

today i janji to myself to study at least two hours after i come back from pasar malam at Leisure Mall there. going the with beloved housemates again. haha

yesterday was nice because my beloved dad called me. haha. sounds pelik kan. he actually rarely calls me. but when he calls me, he only has very valuable words of wisdom from scripture to share with me.he is a man of few words. but when it comes to scripture, he is the man. hes only source of guidance in life is the Bible. love you dad, if you happen to read this.


p/s: love my father, mother and little brother very much :-)